I love to read books. I enjoy writing. When I was still very little I thought it would be great to write a book. To tell a story. It is not that I have not written stories. I just have not gotten to the writing a book part. I feel a little lost when it comes to writing a book.
It is not that I lack ideas. I really do have quiet a lot of them and they come from the strangest things. I even write down these ideas. I just feel that I lack a certain ability to give characters life. Most of the time I find my self very dissatisfied with the characters that I just don't know how to give them life. Knowing how to write well when it comes to grammar, paragraphs, structure and style I can do that. I just can't seem to get things to come alive.
I do want to improve. I think with practice I could. But practice requires time. Time that for much of the past couple of years I have not been able to spare. Getting ready for college, making sure I can graduate from highschool really takes a lot of time. Not to mention practicing the piano. After it all I just want to not think about anything. So I go off and I read a book.
It is not like writing is the only thing in my life that has suffered from lack of time. Crafts is one. It is a lot of work to cut things out, plan what to do, glue and dry, cut some more, and all the little details it can be exhausting. I really enjoy doing them though.
The other big thing with writing is that my family has 2 computers at the moment and 5 people who all want to use them for their own school, social media, and what not that they need the computer. It is a amazing that I was able to post any post during the past school year.
My dream of writing a book though might wait a little longer. With college coming I am not sure what my schedule will be like. That age old question of time will strike again. What I really want to do is just grit my teeth and just start something. I think I would really enjoy it. And someday hopefully I will. I just don't have a clue when.
So this is what I am thinking about today. I hope you don't mind me blurting out my random thoughts on your computer screen.
PS. A very productive thing I did today was invent a new kind of cookie, that according to my family is absolutely delicious.